Posted by Melissa Burlaga
"I'd stick it under my bed, or I'd get a pack of gummies and I'd save the wrapper and, you know, stick it in a drawer or something, hoping my mom wouldn't find it."
"I would find plates with food, like the crust off of toast, or things like that um, hidden under the bed."
And then Cheyenne started having trouble at school.
"They'd, you know, make fun of me because I was getting overweight, and I'd come home and I'd feel bad so I'd eat."
She says, like lots of kids and adults she was using food to ease the hurt. Only, at the time, she didn't know it.
"I didn't notice how I was feeling. I was– I guess I thought I was hungry. But now I know that I wasn't, that I was either upset or I was angry."
"We do one of two things with our feelings, either we talk them out or we act them out. And sometimes acting them out involves taking in food."
Cheyenne started keeping a food "ournal.
Every time she ate something she would write down how she felt.
"Basically what I'm trying to do is help them link what is going on in their mind with what is going on in their belly."
"I'd have like a candy bar, and if we were talking about something that I didn't feel all that great about talking about I'd start eating the candy bar."
Cheyanne had to interrupt her pattern of feeling bad, then eating .
"Before you eat anything sit down and write down what you are thinking and what you are feeling."
"I would, you know, just go up in my room and just sit a while and wait till, you know, I'm not feeling so bad and try to stay away from the kitchen."